Want to join the party, but...

[juliebata]

My plan to go back to work on Wednesday was thwarted by plague. As was my plan to go back to work on Thursday. I've been reading my friends updates, but I haven't had the energy to join any conversations. My head hurts too much, creativity is nowhere to be found. I haven't been this sick for years. My car hasn't been driven since Sunday, I think I last got the mail on Monday. I'm missing the office X-mas party right now, but I don't care. Haven't spoken to another living soul, except my mom, and my brother, who was nice enough to bring me some juice and cough drops. It's been nice not being at work, I really dislike my job. It'll take quite some time to find another one, so I'm stuck for a while. I spend my days alone much of the time, in a freezing cold, windowless basement. I make lists, pull charts for appointments, and search endlessly for the missing at a local dentist's office.
The people are nice, but even after more than four months, I don't feel like I belong there. Very depressing..
While home, I've also been dabbling in some of the online dating sites I belong to. That's always good for a laugh. One fella seems pretty interested, but he's younger than me, and has a teenage kid. He could be the nicest guy in the world, but I don't think "stepmom" is a word that fits in my personal vocabulary. I haven't actually met anyone from online, but some of the conversations have been nice. I'm not expecting much else, but who knows...
This is probably the most depressing entry ever in the history of LJ. Plague sucks.... Brain hurts....
-Juliebata

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Plague sucks

[bibliofile.livejournal.com]

Could be worse, could be smallpox, I guess (vaccines on the news - I'd almost forgotten what that scar was from). Do you think you'll be up for the DJ Trini thing this weekend?

Feel better--