juliebata

I'm so sorry you're going through this. There was a time when a certain muppet and I had broken up when I felt very much the same way. The hard lesson I learned is that your friends will want to be with the person who doesn't make them feel uncomfortable. That means the one who is happy, has found a new relationship, who isn't hurt and angry and in need of support will get all the attention you so desperately need. It sucks, and you can't point out to people just how selfish they're being, because they don't want to hear about it anymore. Remember the buttons? I don't have any lasting words of wisdom... all I can tell you is that things only started to get better when I reached the point where my hate and anger were so exhausting I couldn't sustain them anymore. I wrote some cathartic poetry, and then called him up and said "I don't want to hate you anymore. It's too hard." I hope that you can get to whatever place you need to go in order to start feeling better.