Crank. Rant. Bitch. Snark.

I'm having a cranky day so far. There's no official reason for it, I mean, I know *why* I'm cranky, but it's not a really good reason. But I'm cranky anyway.

Things are still good at work at least, that's not the problem.

I want to visit holyoutlaw in Seattle, and I have to buy a plane ticket to do that. I know exactly when I want to go, I checked to see about how much it would cost, and I have enough money to afford it. The problem is three-fold:
1)I've never made travel arrangements before, anything I've never done
before is automatically scary, and yes, I know that's very stupid.
2)I'm absolutely terrified of flying, although I'll do it because this is important.
3)I don't have a credit card.

I understand I can use my debit card to book a ticket online, but I want to avoid this. replyhazy recommended a local travel agent, but they're not open today. (Well, maybe they were earlier, but they didn't have their hours listed in the phone book!) Not having done this before, I don't know how much a travel agent charges. I don't know if it'll take things over the edge of what I can afford to make this trip happen. All I want is for someone to do it for me, and I'll write them a check. But that would be the easy way, and I have to learn to do hard things. I actually know a travel agent, but I can't ask her.


The other thing that makes me cranky today is seeing my friends list get shorter and shorter. People are dropping me left and right, and while I know I'm not exactly a deep and fascinating read, I can't help but be hurt and take it personally. It's stupid, but it's just the kind of person I am.



I'm going to go make some cookies now...