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Saturday...
Nov. 6th, 2004 01:55 pmIt looks like a beautiful, sunny day out there. I've got the window open for a bit of fresh air. I'm eating some leftover cake, listening to wonderful music, and the cat, as usual, sleeps in a sunny spot on the floor.
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holyoutlaw burned me some CD's of music he likes and thought I might like, too. Turns out he read the musical part of my mind perfectly.
I love him.
It's been a week of getting out for me, the Halloween party last Saturday, a gathering at the same friend's house on election night. On Thursday I had dinner with my brother Steve and his girlfriend. It's just one of those things, he lives about a mile from me, yet we hardly ever see each other. When we do get together for a visit, we always say we won't wait months till we do it again. I had to think back, and it was actually my birthday (in July) when I saw them last. We talked about politics (of course), work, family stuff, relationships. I consider it a blessing that my immediate family is all on the same page politically. Steve didn't know much aboutholyoutlaw, and my hope/plan to move to Seattle, so I filled him in.
Friday, I went out with my friend P. At the Halloween party, we realized we hadn't gotten together since the dog days of summer, so we picked Friday for a catch-up session. We had a leisurely dinner at an Indian restaurant, then went shopping! Just the thing to take our minds off of the stresses of the week. She showed me some of the pictures from her trip around the world.
So, here it is, another beautiful Saturday afternoon, and I have no need or desire to leave my apartment. I should get some laundry started.
Right now I feel like half of all the people in America are my sworn enemies. Plenty of people feel that way. Yet I know from personal experience that I can talk to, and read the journals of, and even work with people who are different, and get along fine. I just need a little more time, I suppose. I'm thinking of a local friend of mine, not on LJ, someone I don't know really, really well, but he's perfectly nice. We've never discussed politics. I have no idea which way he leans. Right now, today, at this moment, if I were to find out that he voted differently that I did, I'd feel angry, betrayed, I wouldn't want to talk to him. And yet, he's always been very kind to me, and everything that's nice about him and has nothing to do with politics is still there. How do we work through these feelings?
My day to day life will not change much. I'm just struggling to get by and have a happy and decent life in very scary and uncertain times. Maybe someday I'll be able to say that I did something good for the world at large, but at the moment all I can do is take care of me, so that I can still be here when tomorrow comes.
holyoutlaw burned me some CD's of music he likes and thought I might like, too. Turns out he read the musical part of my mind perfectly. I love him.
It's been a week of getting out for me, the Halloween party last Saturday, a gathering at the same friend's house on election night. On Thursday I had dinner with my brother Steve and his girlfriend. It's just one of those things, he lives about a mile from me, yet we hardly ever see each other. When we do get together for a visit, we always say we won't wait months till we do it again. I had to think back, and it was actually my birthday (in July) when I saw them last. We talked about politics (of course), work, family stuff, relationships. I consider it a blessing that my immediate family is all on the same page politically. Steve didn't know much about
holyoutlaw, and my hope/plan to move to Seattle, so I filled him in. Friday, I went out with my friend P. At the Halloween party, we realized we hadn't gotten together since the dog days of summer, so we picked Friday for a catch-up session. We had a leisurely dinner at an Indian restaurant, then went shopping! Just the thing to take our minds off of the stresses of the week. She showed me some of the pictures from her trip around the world.
So, here it is, another beautiful Saturday afternoon, and I have no need or desire to leave my apartment. I should get some laundry started.
Right now I feel like half of all the people in America are my sworn enemies. Plenty of people feel that way. Yet I know from personal experience that I can talk to, and read the journals of, and even work with people who are different, and get along fine. I just need a little more time, I suppose. I'm thinking of a local friend of mine, not on LJ, someone I don't know really, really well, but he's perfectly nice. We've never discussed politics. I have no idea which way he leans. Right now, today, at this moment, if I were to find out that he voted differently that I did, I'd feel angry, betrayed, I wouldn't want to talk to him. And yet, he's always been very kind to me, and everything that's nice about him and has nothing to do with politics is still there. How do we work through these feelings?
My day to day life will not change much. I'm just struggling to get by and have a happy and decent life in very scary and uncertain times. Maybe someday I'll be able to say that I did something good for the world at large, but at the moment all I can do is take care of me, so that I can still be here when tomorrow comes.
