Tonight...

I've spent the entire day trying to get a hold of a friend who said
she'd go out with me tonight. Her phone was busy for four hours, then I left her a message. Now, all I can do is wait, and hope she calls back and still wants to get together..
Most everyone else I know will be at a party at my ex-boyfriend's house tonight. I took part in many wonderful events there. Last year's X-mas party was one of the greatest nights of the year. We got dressed up, I helped clean and decorate the house, I made lots of food for the party. I was a big part of everything, and I loved it. I loved him. Now he loves someone else, and I am alone. Today I finally felt good enough to get out and run some errands. It was a beautiful day. As I was driving home, it was sunset, an absolutely lovely sunset. Suddenly, I was struck with this feeling of overwhelming sadness. I wish I had someone to share this sunset with. He has someone. It's not fair. I have a loving family, and lots of friends who care, but I'm feeling really alone right now. Maybe it's the holidays, and being sick, and all the parties I'm missing, that brings that into focus.
The phone rings: it's my friend Bonnie. Yes, she can go out tonight! I am officially snapped out of my reverie. I will try to make this a fun night!
-Juliebata